I've Lost Everything

by innards

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about

released by Count Your Lucky Stars Records on 10" vinyl (500 / 150 black, 350 electric blue).
cylsrecords.com

recorded and mixed by michael briggs
civilrecording.com
mastered by carl saff
saffmastering.com
artwork by john harmon

jon, tom, justin, and leo on the trax

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credits

released September 6, 2012

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Track Name: dboles
I'VE COME TO TERMS WITH MY NEXT STEPS IN LIFE. FINALLY I'M READY TO WALK DOWN LONG WINDING PATHS, MY NERVES STILL CRINGING AT EVERY STEP I TAKE. TURNING BACK IS NOT AN OPTION THIS TIME AROUND. I DON'T WANT TO BE LIKE MY PREDECESSORS.
Track Name: ponzi scheme
NEGLECTING WHAT I HAVE AT THE MOMENT WILL CATCH UP WITH ME IN TIME. THERE IS NO TURNING BACK ON THE MISHAPS. LET'S KEEP THIS POSITIVE,THAT'S WHAT SOCIETY WANTS FROM US. GREAT ACTORS I CALL US. IF ONLY THEY KNEW WHAT WAS BEHIND CLOSED DOORS.THE SHAME AND GUILT THAT EATS MY BODY EVERYDAY.
Track Name: teachers, lawyers, and bicycle shop owners
FOLLOWING IN FOOTSTEPS, SEEKING APPROVAL EVERY CHANCE YOU GET. LOOKING UP TO THE CLOUDS, FEELING THE STRONG WIND ON CHAPPED SKIN. ONLY ONE LIFE (SO THEY SPEAK) BUT WHY ONLY SADNESS AND ANGER? BEATING YOURSELF UNTIL THE PAIN IS NUMB. NOW YOU FEEL NOTHING. WELL MAYBE NOW LIFE WILL TAKE IT EASY FOR THE MOMENT. SIT DOWN AND RELAX. (TAKE IT FOR WHAT IT'S WORTH)
Track Name: smear
AS HARD AS I TRY, I WON'T TURN AWAY. THE DAMAGE YOU'VE CAUSED OVER THE YEARS. NEVER LOSES MY FAITH IN YOU. I'VE LOST RESPECT AT TIMES, BUT NEVER FULLY. WHAT DO YOU NEED TO HELP YOU CHANGE? WHAT KIND OF WAKE UP CALL IS NEEDED? EVERYTHING POSSIBLE HAS BEEN THROWN YOUR WAY. MAYBE THIS WASN'T YOUR PLACE TO BEGIN WITH.
Track Name: maple bar
MOVING FORWARD ON, PAST REGRETS STACKED HIGH. HARSH WOUNDS THAN, NOW FADING SCARS. EACH MARK WITH ITS OWN STORY. ONE DYING RELATIONSHIP AFTER ANOTHER. THE WORSE IT GETS, THE BETTER KNOWLEDGE GAINED. AS THE PAIN PROGRESSES, THE EASIER IT IS TO WALK AWAY. THEN WE ASK OURSELVES, WHY SO MUCH EFFORT? TIME WELL SPENT, NOW LOST IN MEMORY.
Track Name: large milk
NEVER THERE AS USUAL. THE SIMPLE THINGS IN LIFE CONTINUE TO BE MORE AND MORE DIFFICULT. AS TIME GOES ON, NO ONE TO TEACH, NO ONE TO LEARN. NEVER DID I COMPLAIN. YET IT STILL AFFECTS ME UNTIL THIS DAY. I DON'T UNDERSTAND WHY THESE THOUGHTS STILL LINGER ON. WHY DO I BURY AND DIG AT ALL TIMES? MAYBE THIS IS MY WAY OF DEALING WITH ANGER. OR MAYBE I NEED TO SPEAK UP, INSTEAD OF WRITING THIS ALL DOWN.
Track Name: coffee
EMPTINESS WITH SUCH STRESSFUL ANGER. GREEDY AMONG MANY THINGS WE COME ACROSS. INSECURE TO THE POINT OF LOSING ALL HOPE. STRAINING AND STRAINING THE MIND. AS IF THESE WERE THE BIGGEST PROBLEMS.
Track Name: baby carrots
WATCHING YOU THROW IT ALL AWAY. NEVER KEEPING YOUR WORD. FAILING AT BEING THE ROLE MODEL I THOUGHT YOU WERE. VIEWING ALL THESE THINGS TEND TO MOTIVATE ME.
Track Name: moonpie
WATCHING LIFE PASS ME BYE, SO PRECIOUS YET SO DAUNTING. COMPLAINTS LEAVING MY MOUTH ON A DAILY BASIS. WHAT IS MY PURPOSE? STILL LYING FACE DOWN IN MY CUSHION LESS PILLOW. ASKING MYSELF THESE HARD TO ANSWER QUESTIONS. HOPEFULLY I CAN REACH A HEALTHY MEDIUM.
Track Name: spaghetti
THE TASTE OF TRUST IS SO BITTERSWEET. WE CATCH THE HINTS OF FAKE HANDS, SHAKE AND MEET. THEN WHAT DO WE DO? CONTINUE ON WITH SMALL TALK, UNTIL IT IS TOO OVERBEARING. WHAT HAPPENED TO HONEST CONVERSATION AND ACTUAL UNDERSTANDING OF ONE ANOTHER? IT RUNS SO SLIM NOW A DAYS. FAKE IS THE NEW WAY. I WANT NO PART IN THIS.
Track Name: cheeseburger in heaven
WE TRY TO CONVINCE OURSELVES, FLASH BACKS ARE ALL WE HAVE.